Spaz Attack

Thoughts from a big spaz who has lots to spaz about.

Tuesday, July 31, 2007

Just came back from my doctor's appointment and guess what? We moved the date of the planned c-section to August 9th....that is NEXT Thursday! Only 9 days left! Well, it was originally scheduled for August 23rd (at 39 weeks) but I've been having strong contractions lately and that makes everyone feel as though I am going to go labor soon. One thing that we know for sure is that it would be safest for me NOT to go into labor at all because of all the complications I had after delivering Tyler. I'm still scared and I have so many questions running in my head right now. Mainly, isn't it too early to have a baby at 37 weeks? I just pray that Chase will be a healthy boy.

The countdown has truly begun!

Yesterday night, I was getting ready for my doctor's appointment today and this a conversation that Jason and I had.

Me: Jason, you need to fill out the paperwork. I have to take it to the doctor tomorrow.
Jason: What paperwork?
Me: You know, the one that makes you my lawyer.
Jason: Huh? Lawyer?
Me: (with conviction) Yes.
Jason: (laughs) You mean, Power of Attorney.
Me: I guess. Whatever. You know what I mean.

Ok, I'm not ashamed to share. I have some (ok, many) Jessica Simpson-like moments. Lawyer. Power of Attorney. Sounds the same to me!

Monday, July 30, 2007

I just came back from CVS to pick up something. While I was waiting in line, an older African American lady came up to me and said, "Ooh, you're going to have this baby soon!" I said, "Actually, I have a month left." Her mouth opened wide and she said, "Twins? Triplets?" hahaha...Could I be that big?

Don't know why, but it's hit me in a big way: I'm going to be a mother of two. Very soon. Am I ready? Am I ready for a newborn? The sleepless nights and endless breastfeedings?

My cousins are here from Korea and I couldn't even go to the airport to welcome them. Things like that make me sad to be on bed rest. I just wish I could go out and live life! I feel like I'm just wasting away. I can't wait for the day that Chase is here, I'm all healed from the c-section, and I could move freely and go anywhere I want! That will be the day I scream on the top of my lungs, "Free at last! Free at last! God almighty! I am free at last!"

Two things Tyler's been saying lately:

#1 "What?" Like, if we say something he doesn't understand or can't hear us, he will say, "What?" I don't know, it's just one word, but it is really cute.

#2 "Oh my gosh!" Jason and I don't say this so we know he picked it up from school. If his tower of blocks falls to the floor or he spills a drink, he will say, "Oh my gosh." "Gosh" is always said with two syllables, making it extra cute.

I'm nearly at the end of the road! I just pray that Chase will be a healthy and happy little boy.

Saturday, July 28, 2007

Went back to labor and delivery on Saturday. I had pretty regular contractions about every 10 minutes. Jason and I thought I could possibly be in labor. I thought it was too early to have the baby (I'm only 35 weeks still.), but Jason was as excited as could be! False alarm. I was sent home after 3 hours of observation. This was my fifth visit to L&D. At this point, I am sure that they have a picture of me in the doctor's station with the caption, "Watch out for this woman. We are sure she is a hypochondriac/liar and likes to waste our time." All I can say is: Better safe than sorry. If I ignore my contractions and end up having one of those incredibly quick vaginal births at home, I'm screwed big time. Plus, I live in Torrance and my hospital is in Westwood so I really don't have time to be idle, especially if there is heavy traffic on the 405. Ok, now I'm scaring myself!

Yesterday, we had a birthday gathering for my mother in law at our place. Of course, it was really crowded and hot, but I had lots of fun! I love seeing all the cousins play, especially now that Tyler is bigger and can participate. While the boys were playing with a ball, Jason's grandmother (Tyler's great grandmother) took the ball and threw it at Tyler's face...on purpose! She thought it was funny and was laughing. I was so aghast at her actions! It wasn't a hard ball. It was one of those cheapy ones that they sell at the supermarkets, but still! Tyler looked shocked but he was fine so I just let it go, but when she did it a second time, I was ready to yell at the woman! I mean, that's not even funny! And why at his FACE, for crying out loud! Tyler didn't cry but his eyes welled up with water. I couldn't believe it! I hugged him and swore that if she did it one more time, I would give her a piece of my mind. Well, thank god she didn't do it again because that would have been an uncomfortable confrontation in front of everyone. Geez!

Jason and Tyler are at the beach this morning. Boo hoo for me. Tyler loves going out with Jason. Lately, when they leave, I say, "Tyler, stay home with uhma." He says, "No, I want to go with ahpa." And if I ask where he is going he will reply, "Beach and Target and park," while practically running out the door. If I ask him if I could go with them, he says, "No uhma, you stay home. Uhma aya (Korean for sick). Go to hospital."

36 weeks next week! Yay! Almost there! My little turkey is almost done cooking. Oh, I went to the market the other day and three people asked if they could touch my stomach. People always think that I'm ready to "pop" at any moment. Since my actual due date is August 29th, I technically have a month left. If I tell people this, their eyes get really big and they tell me that I'm huge and look like I'm ready to give birth any day now. Every pregnant body looks differnt, but my stomach is very low and it just sticks straight out making my tummy look huge!

Well, have a happy week! ;)

Thursday, July 26, 2007

Here are some pictures that Jen sent over to me this morning of when we lived together in LA. This picture is of an onion (and garlic?) we found lurking in our refrigerator! Can you imagine how long we just left it in there?! We were so amazed (and proud!) we took a picture of it! haha.

Here is a sweet potato that we found in our frig too. Man, we were really good at science projects back then!

This is a picture of some balloons that were in our apartment. I forgot what they were for. But try to read what I added to the balloon. muhahaha... :)

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

Here is the man behind the stories. A co-worker once said to me that she thinks Tyler looks like a thug. A thug! My sweet boy is no thug! This picture was taken right after he turned two. Doesn't he look just like Jason?

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

35 weeks...wahoo!!! The doctor said that I could move about more this week and next week so I'm as happy as can be! And then she said that I could do just about anything I want when I am 37 weeks! Only two more weeks and then...sweet freedom!

Tyler update. :)

1. I asked him if he hugs Teacher Cindy and he said, shaking his head, "I not." I guess he meant I don't.

2. He found my hair scrunchy on the floor and brought it to me. When I asked him if he wanted me to put it in his hair, he said, "That's for girls!" He must have learned that at school cause Jason and I have never said that to him. Jason and I had a good laugh.

3. Now, he acts really silly sometimes. If I ask him to throw his dirty diaper in the trash, he will run as fast as he can to the bedroom and throw it under our bed, all the while laughing like a hyena!

4. He continues to ask, "Is Baby Kate here?" every day when he gets home after school.

5. Lately, I've been drinking a lot of Tang. I love it, especially over shaved ice. Today, he saw the huge container of Tang on the table, held it to his chest and exclaimed, "I love Tang!"

OK, enough for today. These stories probably bore some of you. My apologies. I write it so I could have it on record for myself and for Tyler to read when he gets older.

Monday, July 23, 2007

Most people think that Katie looks just like David, but this picture proves that Katie looks like Claudia too! If you looked at Claudia's baby pictures, you would see this exact face! :)

To Alice, Have a rockin' time in Korea! Just know that I think you are a bad ass and I love talking to you! :) See you when you get back..Cristina

I was looking through the ads in the paper yesterday and I noticed that it is that time of year again when college bound students go shopping. You know, to buy all that crap they will throw out after 4 years, like cheap bookshelves from Ikea and crazy cheap 55 piece kitchen sets for like $9.99.

It made me think of what a exciting time that was. I remember walking around Walmart and buying things like shower caddy and shower slippers, wondering what the next fours year of my life would bring.

One thing I remember about that time is that I told everyone who would listen to make sure they buy a shoe rack of all things. Well, I asked someone who I won't name what I should buy for college and she was so adament that I buy a shoe rack! (Not even the hanging kind! It was the shoe rack that you push under your bed!) She said something along the lines of, "I use mine everyday. Make sure you buy one." So I bought one and I probably told everyone else to buy one too. How lame! Like all you have to do is line your shoes under your bed... You don't need a shoe rack for that! I totally didn't use mine at all and I always felt bad that I told others to buy it too. Here is my apology to y'all.

Another thing I remember about that time is driving up to Berkeley for freshman orientation with Susan, her dad, and my dad. We stayed at a hotel, ate dinner together, and drove up to Berkeley together. How fun! I remember I was wearing totally inappropriate clothes for move in day (the story of my life, I tell you): black "skinny" pants, black shirt, and heels!! OMG, how utterly embarrassing is that?! Ok, so the heels weren't my crazy end-of-college 4 inch heels. They were more like tamer 2 inch heels. BUT seriously, who wears heels on move in day and all black in the middle of summer?!! I'm embarrassed just writing this! hahaha.

Oh, that reminds me. The first or second day we got there, after we said bye to our dads, Susan and I were walking right by Top Dog, and I totally fainted on the street! I remember telling Susan that I wasn't feeling well and then, bam, to the floor I fell. I think I had a nice dream and when I woke up, there were some people around me trying to help me up. The funny part about this is that, for days on end, whenever some people got sick and tired of me, they would tell me to go faint somewhere! How cruel is that! But, of course, I find this kind of mean humor funny so I would have the biggest laugh of all.

I miss the beginning days of college very much. Everyone who came from Whitney still were exploring together, buying our college gear, signing up for classes, and trying to figure out this thing called college.

Fun times.

Friday, July 20, 2007

Yesterday after work, Jason took Tyler to Target to buy any one item and guess which item Tyler picked out for himself? A Thomas the Train book! I'm not surprised at the fact that it is Thomas the Train because Tyler loves Thomas, but a BOOK? What kind of kid picks a book over a toy?! We thought this was funny.

Also, a couple of nights ago I was reading Tyler a book and the main character in the book is a girl who wears a big multicolored bow on the top of her head. I didn't think Tyler knew what a bow was but I asked him what it was. His response: "A big butterfly hat." Make sense, right?

Some pics of Tyler and Katie!

"Lately, I've been hanging out with my cousin Katie a lot. Here we are watching a video together."

"I also like to make Katie laugh by playing peek a boo. I hide in my bus and when Katie doesn't expect it, I jump out and yell peek a boo! She always laughs when I do this."

"I think my grandma likes to watch us play together."

"I love cleaning all my things. Here, I am cleaning my bus."

"Auntie Jimin brought over a cake for us. Even though it wasn't my birthday, we lit the candles and sang happy birthday to me. I loved it! Thanks for the delicious cake and all the goodies for me and Chase, Auntie Jimin!"

Thursday, July 19, 2007

I just checked my site and I was so happy to get a comment from a long lost friend, Jee Soo! Hi Jee Soo! It's been too long since I last saw you. I thought I would see you at our high school reunion and was disappointed that you weren't there. I even told my sister afterwards that it wasn't the same without you. It felt like someone from our class was!

Jee Soo asked if I have always loved children or if that came about after I had Tyler. Seriously, I have always loved children. You know when counselors ask you what you want to be when you grow up? I always said I wanted to work with kids. I know that everyone has different passions and mine is definitely children. If I'm watching the news and I hear of something bad that has happened to a child, I will weep sometimes. If I hear of any injustice or harm done to any child, I just want to find them, pick them up, hug them, and be their protector. Children are the so precious. When I look in a child's eyes, I see so much love and all their potential. Really, I think I'm looking into an angel's eyes. We adults have so much to learn from children, from the way they laugh to the way they dance and even the honest way they think.

Sometimes, the love I feel for other children even surprises me. I now have a son who is almost 2 and a half, and I love him so much that it's even hard to put into words the depth of what I would do for Tyler. You would think that the love I feel for all children would diminish since I have Tyler in my life. I even thought that would be the case. But, nothing has changed since having Tyler. I still think that all children are the most precious creatures sent from God. There is nothing that makes my heart happier than making a child feel loved and special.

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

I went to my weekly Tuesday doctor's appointment yesterday. Everything looks ok and my doctor was really happy that we've made it this far. From here on out, we won't have to do bi-monthly tests and she won't check to see if I am dilated. This makes me feel as though I am safe and should be off bed rest. I think I'll ask her at my next week's appointment if I would walk around more. Her answer will probably be no, why jeopardize things when everything is looking so much better, but I still want to ask.

Afterwards, I got to see my cousin Heidi with Claudia and Katie. I love my cousin Heidi! She is like the funny cool stylish girlfriend that everyone wants. When I hang out with her, I can totally see how we (Claudia, her, and I) are related because we are alike in so many ways (not that I am a funny, cool, nor stylish!). One of our many similarities is that we LOVE children! I bet we would have like twenty children altogether if we naturally could. One thing I always lament about when I see Heidi is the fact that we were always too far apart in age to go party together! Heidi is 6 years younger than me. When I was going through my partying stage, she was way too young to corrupt, and when she was going through her partying stage, I was a total ajuma already! So sad, cause that would have been really fun.

Two Tyler stories for the day. Once in awhile, I try to bite Tyler's arms and say, "Yummy noodles." He will reply, "That's not noodles! That's my arm!"

One time I was doing the dishes and he came up behind me, while placing his hands on my hips and said, "Shake your booty, uhma!" This was so adorable because he said it with absolutely no prompting whatsoever.

Happy Wednesday!

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

Whenever Jason washes Tyler, he has a hard time getting all of Tyler's boogers out. So after he takes Tyler out of the bath, he will lay Tyler down on a towel and pick at his nose with a Q-tip. (Poor kid!) Of course, Tyler hates this and will fight it. And Jason usually says to him something along the lines of, "It'll be ok, Tyler. I'm a doctor."

A couple of nights ago, Tyler and I were laying down in bed and he started sticking his fingers up my nose. I told him to stop and told him that was dirty and that mommy had boogers. Immediately, he got up, went to the bathroom, got a q-tip, brought it back up to bed, and started sticking it up my nose! When I told him to stop, he said very sternly, looking at me straight in the eyes, "Don't worry, mommy. I'm a doctor."

Oh, how he brightens all my days!

Monday, July 16, 2007

Since I'm on the topic of fruit. I have to share something about Jason. He will not eat fruit that is not perfect, like the fruit has to be at its prime, sweet, tender...just perfect. He will take a bite and if it is not to his 100% liking, he will put it back in the fridge for me to finish. (I'm sure at one point, he tried to throw away his once bitten fruit and I probably told him to put it back in the fridge for me to eat. Talk about a waste to throw it out!) What kind of grown man does this? Doesn't he know there are starving children out there in this world? Of course, I like to eat fruit that is perfect too but I'm not always going to pick out the perfect watermelon or honeydew. I will knock on it, smell it, touch the skin, do whatever it takes to pick out the best one, but there will be times when I am disappointed in my selection. That doesn't mean I would throw the whole thing away! I find this behavior to be very odd for Jason. Mostly because it doesn't fit with the rest of his personality. Just thought I would share!

Hello! I'm at 34 weeks now, so 4 more weeks to go until I am full term. One more month! For some reason, I was extra sleepy today. I think I slept through most of the day. Nice.

There is one thing that I've been craving throughout this pregnancy... shaved ice (paht bing soo)! I want it like all the time. There is this one place in Gardena that has the best one near our house so Jason has been there like a million times just in this past month. I think I could eat it all day long. Actually, now that I think about it, I wish I could find a place near my house that sells shaved ice with just syrup and nothing else, like the ones at fairs and amusement parks. I don't need all that red bean and ice cream that Koreans like to put in their shaved ice. I guess I just really like the crunchy cold ice. I wish I could find a ice machine that shaves ice very fine. My in- laws have a machine that I tried using but the shaved ice doesn't come out the way I like it, it's kind of too chunky to be shaved. Anyways, I would love to buy good, good machine.

With Tyler, all I really craved was fruit. We would go to Costco and get all this fruit and I would devour all of it. The funny thing is that Tyler has loved fruit since birth. I wonder if it is because I ate so much of it when I was pregnant.

I'm just glad that I'm not one of those ladies who crave fried chicken and ice cream during their pregnancies! Ice and fruit..can't be too bad for ya!

Friday, July 13, 2007

Since this site is so lacking in the photo department and since I refuse to take pictures at my current state, I was looking for a picture to post and came across this one. This was taken exactly one year ago and I wanted to show you how much Tyler has grown. (I really should put on some make up when I go out and about. I look so blah, but very happy!)

I absolutely love Lakeshore Learning stores. I get a high just walking through its doors. Once I took Claudia there and she was surprised at how utterly happy and giddy I was. I seriously want to buy everything. I want to get everything for Tyler. I have visions of starting a school of my own. I get their catalogs sent to my house and I look at it over and over again earmarking things that I want to buy. Some people get a high buying purses. I have a friend who gets a high from buying things at the Container Store. I get a high buying educational toys for children.

Toilet Training. Two words very common for parents of two year olds. Some parents want this stage to be quickly done and over with. For me, I have absolutely no desire right now to go through the process with Tyler. First of all, I have no strength to even lift him up to the toilet without my huge stomach being in the way. I think toilet training could be physically taxing on parents and I shouldn't be moving too much. Also, I know that even if we were able to succeed in having Tyler trained before Chase arrives, I have a feeling that he will regress once he sees his little brother wearing diapers. Lastly, I think it is much easier to let him just go in a diaper! Oh my, imagine all the mistakes that he will inevitably make and looking for a restroom wherever you go. (Not that I go out, but I figure that would be a pain in the butt!) So, I will probably wait until Chase is 3 months old (when I feel things get a lot easier with babies) and then try to work my magic (bribery) on Tyler. By that time, I think he and I should be ready.

Thursday, July 12, 2007

Every night before Tyler goes to bed, he has a cup of milk. Yesterday night, Jason and I noticed that we were short of milk but decided to just add some water to it. Tyler took a sip and yelled, "That's not milk. It's water!" Jason then opened the sippy cup to show him that the liquid was white. Tyler looked at it and said, "It's milk." We thought we were in the clear. Then, he took another sip and yelled, "No, it's not milk. It's water, ahpa. I want milk." So, it was decided that Jason would go to the market to get some. While Jason was getting ready to leave, Tyler said, "I want to go too" while putting on his shoes. It is so much fun to hear him string words together to make sentences!

I'm so ready to move out of our place. Since we moved back to LA and throughout this whole pregnancy, I've been telling Jason, "This place is crowded, but let's try to bear with it until we absolutely can't stand it so we could pay off school loans." And for some reason, all of a sudden (within this week actually) I can't bear our place any longer! Tyler's toys are everywhere and we don't have space for even our necessities! I don't think we'll be able to move before Chase arrives, but hopefully, by January, we'll be someplace else. It's time to move on. I'm at a point where I don't care how much we're saving by living here. It's an issue of quality of life! :)

Thanks Helen and Claud for all your help yesterday. Helen, you surprised me tooooo much! Tyler played with the balloons all night long!

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

I have sooo much weight to lose once Chase arrives! When I got pregnant, I told myself that I wouldn't gain too much weight with this pregnancy, like I did with Tyler. But, that went out the window the very day I was put on bed rest. With Tyler, I was confident that I would lose the extra weight, but with this one, I don't know why but I'm scared that I won't!

Ok, we have the date set for the planned c-section if I end up not going into labor earlier. It is August 23rd. That will be when I am 39 weeks. I am kind of confused because my doctor has been saying all along that I would have the c-section done at 37 or 38 weeks, but now she says that new guidelines have been recently set that any planned c-sections take place only when the woman is at 39 weeks. If I want it earlier than that, I will have to get an amnio done to check for Chase's lung maturity, which I don't want so I guess August 23rd is the date, that is, if Chase plans on staying in there that long!

There is one place that I want to take Tyler before Chase comes...Benihana! I don't have to walk around and I think Tyler would enjoy it. So that is one thing that I am looking forward to! Maybe mid-August when I know that it will be safe if I go into labor.

Ok, you know I don't have much to write about when I'm writing about looking forward to a trip to Benihana! haha...I will end here for today!

Monday, July 09, 2007

Yesterday, I went back to the hospital. I felt some strong contractions Saturday night and I felt so much pressure down there (sorry if TMI) that I felt that the baby was about to pop out! So I went to Labor and Delivery where I was observed for three hours and sent back home. According to my doctor, that is a normal "feeling" to have in the last month or so of pregnancy. Really? Didn't have it with Tyler. So, anyways, I kind of felt bad to have wasted everyone's time and ruined so many people's schedule Sunday morning. But, better safe than sorry, right?

Wedding season has started! And I love everything about weddings: the gathering, the love in the air, the food, the dancing...everything about it! BUT too bad I won't be able to attend any this summer! SO SAD! Sorry to Weikuo and Mindy, Sherman and Cindy, Jeannie and Brian, and James and fiancee. I can't believe that I will miss my friend's wedding days.

Happy Belated to Heidi...we have to get together before Claudia goes back.
Also, happy belated to Claudia, who had her birthday on July 3!
Happy Belated to Helen too...sorry, girl, I didn't know!
As you can see, I'm very bad with birthdays!

Friday, July 06, 2007

We think Tyler has a little bit of OCD in him. We've noticed some patterns in him that we think are very peculiar, but cute! The sheets he sleeps on has to be smooth and "nice." If it is wrinkled, he will say, "It's ugly" and smooth it out to his liking before he lies down. He has to sleep on his pillow a certain way. If I turn it around, he will say, "No! This way!" He likes to line his trains and toys up a certain way.

One thing that I find rather funny is that he loves cleaning things! I'll give him a diaper wipe or a small wet towel and he will go from toy to toy and wipe it down. Not thoroughly, but he will wipe it down while singing, "Clean up. Clean up. It's time to clean up today." He will do this for about thirty minutes and give me the dirty wipe or towel and say, "All done" when he is done. He was doing this yesterday and I was just watching him in awe. God knows he didn't get the "cleaning gene" from me or Jason!

He also likes putting away laundry. If I am folding laundry, he will take the folded laundry and stack them up neatly in the bedroom, one by one, running back and forth from the living room to the bedroom. He seems to get such a sense of accomplishment from helping me do little things around the house. He's my little man!

Claudia is coming over today and she has plans to bake bread or make cookies with Tyler. I think he will get a kick out of it! I can't wait!

Thursday, July 05, 2007

Fourth of July came and went without much ado. Jason and Tyler went to the beach in the morning while I spent time with my mom. Later, we had a small b-b-que at home because Jason said, "It's fourth of July! We have to have a barbecue!" Funny guy.

This pregnancy is going at a snail's pace! I'm 32 weeks now so I have about 6 weeks until Chase is here. I think I will count down here to help me see the light at the end of the tunnel.

This morning I made Tyler french toast for breakfast. I put some syrup on the side of his plate. While he was eating, he yelled, "Look uhma, a horse!" At first I didn't know what he was talking about but he kept pointing at the syrup. When I looked closely, the syrup was shaped like a horse! I asked him where the legs were and he pointed them out and then said, "Face," while pointing at the face! I wanted to take a picture of it to show Jason later but, of course, no camera could be found. I just thought that was a funny thing for Tyler to see in his syrup!

Recently, Tyler has been sleeping with a stuffed animal, one that was given to me by a student. He never slept with one before so it's really cute for him to look for "uhma doggie" ("uhma doggie" because it came with a baby doggie) before he goes to sleep.

Another thing Tyler has been doing lately is asking, "Which one?" while holding two items in his hands. The funny thing about this is that he will not always give me the item that I picked! He will look down at the items and keep whichever item that he wants to have! And I will say, "Tyler, why do you give me a choice and then give me the one that I don't want?" He just gives me a rascal laugh.

Tyler has this bus that has a ghost on it and I tell him I am scared of it. This weekend, he was acting like a ghost and saying, "I want uhma!" I started screaming and guess what he said: "Stop screaming, uhma!" Jason was laughing his butt off!

Tyler acts like a baby sometimes. Maybe I shouldn't encourage him but it is so cute that I will entertain him for awhile. He will ask for a "baby bottle," start babbling, and go limp in my arms. Is that what he thinks babies do? While he is in baby mode, if he accidentally starts talking again, I will say, "Babies can't talk, Tyler" and he goes back to babbling.

Every day he comes home from school and asks, "Baby Kate here?"

There is a new book that someone sent over for Tyler. On one of the pages, there is a picture of a man reading a book, and in that book, there is a upside down picture of three little pigs. I turned the book over so he could see the three pigs and I asked him what story the man was reading. He looked at the picture carefully and said, "Pigs. Wolf (blowing motion). They run (with his arms in running motion)." He remembered the story of the Three Little Pigs!

When I first got pregnant and found out out due date was August 29th, I was so thrilled because I told myself that I would have all of July and August to be with Tyler, go places with him, and really hang out before a new baby enters the picture. I had this list of things in my mind: miniature golf, boat riding at Claud's place, art classes, camping, even making water balloons and throwing them, and so much more! Whenever I think of someplace else I rather be with Jason and Tyler than at home, I throw myself a small pity party. I get so sad knowing that once the baby comes, it will be hard for me to give Tyler ALL my attention and that I really wanted him to have as many experiences with mommy and daddy as possible before Chase comes. People reassure me that Tyler will never know the difference. But, the thing is, I know and it makes me sad.

Tuesday, July 03, 2007

Oh my, it is a hot day in LA! It is 8:20 and I already feel like a sweaty bloated pig!

I was thinking of songs from high school and you know another song that I really liked in high school? Only You by Yazoo (thought it was Yaz, but guess not) I looked it up on youtube and it brought back many memories. It was different from most of the other songs I listened to in high school, but it has such a catchy light beat. Makes you happy. Makes you want to sway your hips and walk on clouds. Perfect summer song for a fat pig!

Like Tyler would say, "Shake your booty!" Shake it, everyone! Hope you are having a fun hot day!

Monday, July 02, 2007

You know what song always takes me back to high school? I Swear, by All 4 One! It takes me right back to junior/senior letter day my junior year when the senior class president made us raise our right hands and say, "I swear by the moon and the stars in the sky and I swear like the shadow that's by your side" that we would continue Whitney's legacy or something. This song not only reminds me of that day, but makes me think of high school in general (I think cause Susan loved it!).

The reason I bring this up is that this song is in the movie Just Friends, which I TOTALLY recommend you see. Claudia and I think that Ryan Reynolds is the cutest and can't believe that we didn't know who he was until we watched this movie! What a talented actor! :) I just love when the ending credits are rolling and Ryan Reynolds' character is singing I Swear. I could put this part on repeat and see it over and over again cause it is too funny!

I'm very excited about something today. Can't really share because it has nothing to do with me, but it's been giving me contractions all day long! hahaha. All this excitement makes Chase want to pop out and say, "I'm here!"