Spaz Attack

Thoughts from a big spaz who has lots to spaz about.

Tuesday, August 31, 2004

I am a bad blogger. Bad. Bad. Bad. Maybe I'll get the urge to write later. But for now, my mind is blank.

Wednesday, August 25, 2004

Ok, so I am a loser and I whittle my time away doing nothing. (Yesterday, I finished my puzzle! It was only 300 pieces but, hey it was an impressionist painting and still took me like three hours to complete!) Also, to spend my time, I get online a lot. I check people's sites like every second, at least twice a day to see if they've blogged.

Well, there is this guy name Brian. I haven't seen him in ages, but I knew him when I worked at Sang Am and he worked at Asiana. Many people have told me that he looks like a skinny Jason, which I do concur with; they look like they could be brothers or cousins. Anyways, I recently got on his site via BamBam's site. He is an amazing photographer and he has a really cool site. So, I left him a message along the lines of, "Hey, it's me Cristina. Love the amazing pics!" Later that week, when I checked his site, I noticed that he took his whole site off, but had left one page that said, "Just Because." Just because!! And because I am neurotic and stupid and thinks the whole world revolves around me (haha!), I came to the conclusion that he had realized that his site was being seen by too many people (me!) and that made him uncomfortable and he took down his whole site!

I told Jenny this and she told me that I was being dumb again and that he just took it off ..."Just because!" I was like, "No, I shouldn't have left him a comment. Maybe the site is for his close close friends and he didn't want acquaintances to be looking at his personal pictures."

Anyways, because I am TRULY a loser (and this blog proves it!), I checked his site again this morning and....check it out yourself... must have told him!

Tuesday, August 24, 2004

Yesterday, I went to Target and bought a Checkers game board, a deck of cards, and a puzzle. I swear, I have too much time on my hands. I think that I should be able to make a puzzle for everyone I know by Christmas time if I get started soon!

I wish I had a cook, a maid, a personal shopper, someone to give me daily massages, and a interior decorator (once we get a house). Is that really too much to ask for? For sure, I want an on site cook who will whip up any delicous meals for me and my family any time of the day by request. It would be wonderful not to have to set foot in the kitchen!

Lazy, lazy, lazy...and getting lazier by the day!

Friday, August 20, 2004

Hello, hello. I've been in a fashion rut for about two years. As a teacher, it's great because you don't have to dress up to work everyday. Because of this, I rarely spent money on clothes at all. So lately, I've been looking into my closet and wondering why I have nothing to wear and wondering why I am such a slob and can't put myself together nicely for the life of me. Then I went shopping the other day and it dawned on me, dressly nicely and stylish is easy if you have the money! Nothing hard about it at all. All you have you have to do is go buy stuff, lots of it: clothes, purses, shoes, accessories. Then get your hair done and get a manicure and pedicure, get your hairy legs waxed..and voila! Anyways, it's all about just spending money. Call today's entry, "Cristina's lame thought of the day."

Call me biased, but I love some of Asiana Airlines commercials. Now that SA&A has lauched their website you could check some of them out. Go to and then go to portfolio and check out some of Asiana's TV commercials. I love the ones with the the kids in it.

Have a happy friday!! :)

Thursday, August 19, 2004

Not much to report since my days consists of doing nothing. haha. Well, maybe some random thoughts of the day.

- Why does the E! Channel have to promote their E! True Hollywood Story about the movie Exorcist like every second? It freaks me out and I always have to change the channel. It wouldn't be that bad, but I hate spending extra energy on getting the remote and pushing the button.

- I was talking to Susan (She's alive, folks!) the other day and I told her I was at Trader Joe's and asked her if she had any recommendations for me. She told me about this jalepeno cilantro hummus that she likes. Anyways, so I went to get it and as I was putting it in my basket, this lady says, "I love that stuff. It's addicting." Then, I went to the cashier and he says, "I could eat the whole thing in one sitting." Well, I haven't tried it yet, but it must be darn good!

- I went shopping for the first time in ages. At the Gap, they are doing this special where you get a game card every time you try on a pair of jeans. If you open up the card, you could win a free pair of jeans or get other discounts. I wanted to win the free pair so I tried on some jeans. I ended up liking one of the jeans but did not get the free pair card so I had to pay for it. What a damn good ploy.

- I'm craving sourdough bread with good, good quality butter.

- I bought Jason's birthday gift yesterday and he talked me into giving his gift last night even though his birthday is in three weeks. We always do this. I don't know why I just can't keep my big mouth shut when I have a gift for him! It's my fault.

- I am tired now. Time to take my midday nap!

Sunday, August 15, 2004

Jason and I went to the Portland Zoo yesterday and all I can say is one word: WEAK!! There were barely any animals and we toured the whole place in about an hour! We weren't able to see half the animals because some were hidden out of sight, probably sleeping in some shade. Jason said that it was a conspiracy and that the hidden animals are probably never in the cages to begin with. That would be funny.

Well, my body doesn't feel the same. I am tired all the time. I mean, my schedule looks like this: wake up, eat breakfast, go back to sleep, get up, clean up a bit, eat lunch, go back to sleep, pick Jason up, eat dinner, go back to sleep. Wake up in the morning and do it again!! Fun! Isn't my schedule mind boggling?!

Time to go back to sleep now...

Friday, August 13, 2004

Sadly there is not much to report since all I do is sleep and watch Korean dramas. Speaking of which, Korean dramas are soooo damn good. Nothing on American television even comes close in comparison. And, the best part is that videos are only a mere dollar per tape! OK, so the quality stinks but...what a bargain!

For some reason, like I didn't pay my bill, Verizon shut off my phone service and I wasn't able to get any messages all this week until today so if you left me a message, I am sorry and I will call you back soon! (And to think I was worried sick about Susan's whereabouts and she left me a message Monday evening!) Like I told the man when I called to get my phone reactivated and he told me that he would have to charge me a $15 reactivation charge, "I hate Verizon!"

Well, happy happy Friday to y'all... Is it Friday? I have no sense of time, dates, etc. WHICH REMINDS ME...Happy Birthday to Jenny!!! I remember just last year on your birthday, you tried to strip me of all my clothes. That was fun. Maybe I will post some of those pictures so everyone could see the proof.

It started off like any other party. People chatting, drinking, etc.

Then Jenny thought it would be funny to take my shirt off!! Here she shows it off proudly!

...and looks at the tag.

I need to get Jenny back! Here she waits nervously!

She's trying to run away! Quick! Charlie, catch her!


Muhaha...and you thought you could get away from me! My evil laugh.

Charlie helps Jenny out. What a nice husband....

Now, if you could believe it, Jenny is trying to get Charlie but he is holding tight to his clothes!

All is forgotten and a fun time is had by all. Me and my SA&A friends. I miss them!

Let's do this again in thirty years. I will get you with my cane!

Wednesday, August 11, 2004

I feel bad. There is this one Korean market that I go to for food and videos. It was the very first Korean market that we found in Portland so Jason and I went there for about three weeks. The lady that owns it was so sweet to us and I really liked her from the beginning. Then, we found this much bigger market that had much more stuff in it. So now I still go to the smaller one and have my weekly chat with the owner, get some videos, and buy a little bit of stuff. Then I go straight to the bigger market to do most of my shopping. I feel like such a traitor.

Tuesday, August 10, 2004

It is soooo boring in Portland. I don't know what is wrong with me. Usually, I am up and about, trying new things and going to places on my own. Since I got here, I have been unmotivated and lackadaisical. I only stay home and then complain about how boring it is. But nothing really makes me want to leave my house. Weird. It is totally hot in Portland right now. Where is all the rain everyone talks about? I never thought I could miss LA this much.

PS. If you love me, you will update your xanga or blog so I'll have something to read, if only for a moment.

Also...Susan, where you be?!

Sunday, August 08, 2004

Jason left for Washington DC yesterday and will be back on Tuesday night. Wah. Wah. Wah.

I watched this unsolved mysteries on D.B. Cooper. If you don't know his name, I suggest you google it and find out more about him. Don't have the energy to write about him right now, but it's pretty interesting shit.

Hung out with Susan's friend today. It's always good to hang out with friends of friends.

Interesting day. Can't wait till Tuesday though.

Friday, August 06, 2004

This morning, when Jason and I were driving to his work, I told Jason that I was really thirsty. He was like, "Well, let me stop here at this Starbucks and get you some water." I said, "No, it's ok. You'll be late. Plus, you don't want coffee right now, right?" To which he replied, "No, but let me get you some water." So he quickly parked outside a Starbucks and ran inside while I waited in the car with Thumper. I was thinking, "Man, what a guy I married. Will do anything to make sure I am happy."

In that moment, out comes Jason with one cup of coffee for himself! He had forgotten my water!! haha. Men...

Tuesday, August 03, 2004

#2 on my list. I just realized that there is no In N Out here! My goodnes... what is one to do?

Spoke to Jenny R. a couple of nights ago. It seems like we'll catch up with one another like after a long, long hiatus and then talk for like hours. I told her before that she reminds me of my mom and that is just about the nicest compliment I could ever give anyone so I hope that she knows how special she is to me and that no matter what, I will always be praying for her happiness.

Girls can be so catty sometimes but I am lucky to have surrounded myself with girls that are genuine, happy for my happiness, and true to themselves. I can't stand girls who need to put up a front, is jealous of everything in the world, and not happy with themselves so find the need to make other people feel bad in their own slight manipulative ways.

I don't know why, but this reminds me of something that happened two years ago. I had this "girlfriend" call me completely out of the blue. We had not spoken in two years, since our graduation from college, and I was so thrilled to hear her voice on my voicemail. I could barely wait to call her back. Though we had our share of the most awesome memories in high school and some in college, for some reason, we had lost touch, and I took this phone call as a sign that she was reaching out to me. Well, I was so excited and I called her back and her intentions for the call became so quickly apparent that it made me sick to my stomach. She had called basically to talk crap about this other girl who we both knew. This other girl had asked her to be in her bridal party and she had agreed and on and on she went about all the horrors of this girl and her family and the wedding. And, I just couldn't believe it. Here we were, both 23, had been out of high school for about 6 years, and she called to talk smack about her supposed "friend." I listened but I felt sick, like I had gone back to junior high gossip. It was all so stupid.

God, I don't know why I bring that up. I guess cause I think, if you're going to be a friend, then be one damnit. Don't freakin' act like a friend and talk behind someone's back. It seems so simple. I realize that I could not talk to her anymore in the ways that we had before. The whole conversation made my mouth feel as though it was full of metal and my heart felt so ugly.

When I think about that whole incident, it makes me happy to know that I have friends that I would only talk proudly about. I could go on and on and describe each person in detail and how they are special not only to me, but to this world.

As you can see, I am feeling quite weepish today. Call it hormones.

I went and got a much need massage today. I looked online and went to one of the top spas in Portland, and boy, was I disappointed! It was nothing like Burke and Williams. The bed was cold; I could hear conversations outside the room; there were only two showers; no shavers, q tips, cotton balls, hot tub. It just didn't seem like a get away. I miss LA so I am looking for all sorts of reasons why I want to/ need to/ have to get back to LA after Jason's one year fellowship is over. Burke and Williams is one thing on this list.

Speaking of fellowships, I hate telling people why Jason and I are here. He is a fellow. (Ok. And, I'm a gal.) Fellowship- It's such an odd word. Someone asked me if he was heavily involved with church. haha.

Sunday, August 01, 2004

Sophomore year our class held a dance of some sort, and I don't know why, but Susan and I asked the inner council to bring CD's to play. (There must not have been a DJ or something that night.) Well, there was this one guy who brought the Michael Jackson collection edition to the dance. It was a CD case that was suppose to hold two of Michael Jackson's most popular songs. Anyways, I remember that when I opened it, there was only one CD in it. Well, at the end of the night, we couldn't find it. I looked everywhere. In the pile of other CD's. Everywhere. I remember telling him that I did not know where it was and that there was only one CD in it. He seemed upset. (Rightfully so.)

Fast forward like four years to college. I was in Claudia's dorm room at Stanford and was randomly going through her CD's and I saw a Michael Jackson collection edition. I opened it and there was only one CD. I asked Claudia when she bought it and she said she thought it was mine and that she must have packed it accidental when she was packing for college. I immediately thought of this guy and took the CD back to Berkeley with me.

Fast forward a week or so later. So, this guy went to the same college and happened to live in the same dorm as me. A week later, he came into my dorm room and, lo and behold, he sees this Michael Jackson CD. I tell him that it's probably his, that my sister had it in her dorm room all this time, I'm not sure how it got there, I'm sorry. He opened it and asked where the other CD was since there was only one in it. I told him that I always remembered there was only one CD.

Well, I could totally tell by his face and what he said that he did not believe any of it- that there was only one CD, that it had gotten "lost" somehow, that it ended up in my sister's dorm room. I knew that he thought that I had kept it this whole time and had been caught red handed with his CD in my room.

It upsets me to think that someone out there thinks of me as a thief and a liar, but at the same time, what can I do? I really can't explain how it traveled to my sister's dormroom, but it did. I really couldn't explain more to him than that what was the truth. I could tell he didn't believe me. But I swear that it was.

I miss LA food. There are restaurants and places that Jason and I loved going to get our favorite foods in LA. It took us about four years to come up with this intangible list. We love El Pollo a la Brasa on Western. We love going to Redondo for seafood. We go to Dragon for Korean style Chinese. We love Sea Food Town in Torrance. We love Cha Cha Cha when we're in the mood for sangria. If we wanted decent food and wanted to eat at home, I used to pick up premade stuff from the Galleria and Plaza! So easy! I mean, anything that we would ever want to eat was at most a ten minute drive from Jason's place in K-Town. Here, I just can't eat anything! We have no favorite places. The food sucks. I can't wait to get back to LA to eat!