Spaz Attack

Thoughts from a big spaz who has lots to spaz about.

Sunday, October 26, 2008

I fell asleep watching the Duggar Family on TV. Oh my, 17 kid and one more on the way! Are these people crazy?! haha. While I was watching the show, I asked myself if I would just keep having kids if I were physically able to, if I had a big enough house and if finances were not an issue. I think six would be my limit cause can you imagine trying to coordinate soccer practice, birthday parties, homework, etc. for more than six kids? I couldn't!

Anyways, so I fell alsleep but I"m glad Claudia called me and woke me up because I just hate falling asleep in front of the TV.

I've been eating all day today. Like, seriously, I haven't gone more than a hour without stuffing food into my mouth. NOT. GOOD. I have so much weight to lose. At this point, I don't really care. I've lost all motivation and I just don't care. But, I know that I WILL care when I am standing in front of tons of people at Jen's and Kristen's wedding and knowing that everyone is wondering if I am pregnant! (which I'm not, but wish I were since that way I'll have an excuse!) I'll let you in on a little secret: I actually LIKE holding Chase around (and mind you, he is not a skinny boy!) because I think he hides some of the lumps and bumps that are forming around my body. Can you say SAD?!

I can't wait for November and Christmas! My favorite time of the year! Who doesn't love Christmas? This year will be more exciting since Tyler is getting older and knows more stuff now. (Note to self: better start threatening with that lump of coal now!) I'm thinking we'll get a fake tree this year. I told Jason and he said, "Why? You know we'll only use it one year. I wonder why he said that?) I know that getting a fake tree is totally about the tackiest thing you could do around Christmas, next to regifting! I know! I know! But, I think it might be safer??? Don't need to be burning down the house! And little needles won't fall everywhere (cause God knows who will end up cleaning it all!) But the best part of it is that I don't have to put lights on it since they come pre lit now. I just remember putting up lights and taking them off being the biggest pain in the booty when I was younger. Anyways, we'll see what happens with the tree situation.

This weekend, Jason texted me, "Wash my gis." Gis, for those of you who might not know is the ridiculously heavy uniform that people wear for jitjitsu. Seriously, it's so heavy, if I hung it on one of my fingers, that finger might break off. Anyways, I was annoyed so I texted him back "Wash your ass." Is that mean? I think it's funny! I wonder if other couples talk like that. Is that dysfunctional? Am I being a horrible wife? I don't know...

So, our place is a total mess. So, what else is new, right? God, I WANT to clean. I seriously do. But I have to watch Chase like 24/7. He is all over the place, falling off ottomans, drawing with markers on the carpet, putting soot in his mouth when I'm not looking. And then, when they go to sleep, the LAST thing I want to do is clean up. My excuse is that all that noise of putting toys away will wake up the boys. I am so full of excuses, I know. I keep saying that when Chase is a bit older, I'll have this house in order- every day, all the time. We'll see if that really happens.

Did I tell you guys that Jason put me on finacial lockdown? Jason just came home one day and told me he was doing an "audit" of our finances and looking for "embellziment." I'm like, "Yes, honey, cause you make SOOOO much money." (I'm being so sarcastic here.) He wrote out a budget and told me to sick to it! Jason is so funny! He is really bad with numbers, finances, things like that. He is a really smart guy, don't get me wrong, but money issues are just not his thing, so when Jason was talking about money and interest and IRAs, it was actually cute, in a look-at-that-child-try-to-tie-his-shoes sort of way. So, my favorite word right now is recessionista. When I give him a cheap dinner (spahgetti), I call it "recessionita dinner." When I give him jello for dessert, I say "Here is your recessionita dessert." If I pick up cheap anything here and there, I call it recessionita this and that. I am sure that Jason is really annoyed with me and this word at this point. Well, he can't say much. He put me on a budget! He told me to save money! He created this cheap monster!

Well, enough yapping for tonight. I better get to sleep if I want to tackle this nasty house tomorrow!!

Have a great week!

Saturday, October 25, 2008

A couple of days ago, we had a bit of a scare at our house. Chase was standing on the coffee table. I was sitting in arms rest on the couch when all of a sudden, Tyler pushed Chase off the coffee table and Chase's face hit the coffee table on his way down to the ground. All I remember is the "thump" of his face hitting the coffee table and then slow motion of him falling to the ground. Of course, Chase was wailing uncontrollably and I was panicked, and seeing what he had done, Tyler was frightened and sobbing. My first thought was to soothe Chase so I just cradled him in my arms. Tyler knew he was in big trouble and kept saying sorry through his tears. I told Tyler that I had to call the ambulance to check Chase and the police to talk to him, and he kept saying "No! No! I'm sorry!" I don't know if this was the right thing to do as I was lying to my child, but I really wanted him to know that this kind of behavior was not acceptable in our house! After all was calm, I asked Tyler "Why did you do that?" His response: "I just wanted to see if he could jump." Oh dear. Kids are cute even when they are being naughty.

Friday, October 24, 2008

Some pics taken last Sunday. All of these were taken with Jason's camera. Can you believe that I LOST my camera charger AGAIN?!! It's cursed for sure. I hope I get a new one for Christmas!

The pics are obviously out of order. Here's what we did that day. Went to church, went on a train ride, tried on costumes at home and then met the Kongs at the pumpkin patch.


Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Yesterday night, when I was putting new sheets on our bed, Tyler came to help me without being asked. I just had to tell him, "Tyler, you are such a good boy and I am a lucky God gave me you as a son. (pause) I wonder why God gave me you?" He stopped, looked at me and said, "Probably because he knows you only like good boys." This just brought a smile to my face.

Today, I went to Tyler's school to see that Tyler was the only student to get a 100% on a test on things that they have been covering in class. I guess it was a verbal test and the teacher wrote down the answers the students gave her. This was the first time that I have seen something like this and I was beaming with pride.

(Tyler, I am a lucky mom and I do thank God every day for you and Chase. You are a good, smart, happy boy and you make me laugh every day. We love you now and will always love you just the way you are.)

Sunday, October 19, 2008

This morning, at the crack of dawn, I heard Tyler come into our room, go into the bathroom, flush the toilet, pee, and then he flushed the toilet again. I asked him why he flushed the toilet before peeing and he responded half asleep, "If the pee mixes with the poo, it will get worser and and worser." I have no idea what he was talking about but it's such a funny statement, I don't want to forget it.

Today, we met with the Kongs at Irvine Park for the boys to enjoy the pumpkin patch. Whenever I hang out with Christine, I am in awe of how much time has flown. I mean, we met when we were 13, and now we are ajumas with our own kids! It's cool that Brady and Chase are only 6 months apart. I hope they grow up together and have many memories of when they were babies and could only coo at each other.

Well, hope you all have a great week! Halloween is around the corner which means many Halloweeny/Fall events for us! Though we don't really celebrate Halloween, I think it's fun for kids to dress up and pretend. I'll post pics of the boys in their costumes later!

Thursday, October 16, 2008

Don't know why but I'm feeling so nostalgic. Actually, I do know why. I'm listening to I Will Be Here By Steven Curtis Chapman. Isn't that song so amazing? I think I heard it for the first time my freshman year in college and I couldn't wait to have my future husband sing, or at least say, the words to me. And thinking of my freshman year of college brings back so many memories and emotions. Wouldn't it be fun to go back in time and relive certain moments of your life? What would be different if I could live my life over with all the knowledge I have now, with the person I am now. What would I change? Do or say differently? Off the top of my head, I can immediately think of two times in college that I would go back to and change.

If I could go back in time, I know that I would be more understanding and supportive to a friend whose mother had breast cancer while we were in college. Gosh, I was so young and stupid. I didn't even know what to say or do. That must have been beyond scary for her and her family and yet, I did and said nothing. I wish I could relive that.

I said some stupid, really stupid, things to one guy when I broke up with him. Nothing mean. Just stupid. (I'm embarassed to share in here what was said, but if you ask me, I'll be happy to share my stupidity!) I wish I could erase those words from his memory and heart. I wish I could go back and say things differently.

Just two things from college that I would change if I could.

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

So, Tyler said the words. This morning, he didn't want me to dump water over his head to get shampoo out of his hair, and he yelled through his tears, "Mommy, you are ALWAYS being mean to me!" I truly had to hold my laughter. I just wanted to shake him and hug him and kiss him for being so dang cute.

On the way to school, he said, "Mommy, when daddy comes home, I'm doing to tell him all about our little problem today." I said, "oh? what problem?" And he went on and on about how he didn't want water over his head but how I kept dumping water on him and getting water up his nose. I just listened and smiled at how much my baby has grown.

A couple of days ago, Tyler called me into the bathroom with his usual call, "Mommy, I'm done!" When I got there, Tyler was sitting on the toilet and had toilet paper wrapped around his neck. When I ask him what that was, he said, "Mommy, it is a toilet paper scarf!" I thought that was so creative and cute! Of course I laughed and he's been doing it since. Kids are so darn cute...toilet paper scarf! haha!

Thursday, October 09, 2008

Last night Tyler wet his bed. (To lessen any future embarrassment for him, I must add that this is a very rare occurrance.) Anyways, he came to me in the morning to tell that he wet this bed and I said to him, "Tyler, when you have that feeling like you have to go to the bathroom, you have to get up and use the toilet, ok? What happened last night?"

He responded, "My pajamas didn't work."

Monday, October 06, 2008

Yesterday, at lunch I said to Jason, "I don't mind feeding these noodles to the boys because it has iron in it."

Tyler looked at me and said, "Mommy, the food was crinkled and you ironed it?"


Chase update:
He says "boo" at the end of Tyler's scary song.
He says "cookie" when he wants a cookie (any finger food).
Says "nana" for banana.
Says "doh" (Korean) when he wants us to do something again.
Says "ball" when he wants to play with a ball.
Hits things when we say "mae mae" (Korean).
Shakes his head no when he doesn't want something.
Likes to write scribble with pencils and markers.
Kicks things when we tell him to kick.
Sometimes says "poo poo" after he poos.
Bounces when we ask him to bounce.
Puts toys away when we say clean up.
Sits down when we tell him to sit down.
Hugs and kisses us when we ask him to.
He claps when we sing "If You're Happy and you know it."
Touches head, ears, nose, mouth, toes, tummy when we ask him to.
Opens his mouth when we ask him to.
Points to Mommy, daddy when we ask him to.
Climbs up and down chairs and couches.
Raises his hand when we ask, "Where's Chase?"
Raises both his arms when we ask him to.
Sometimes says "Uh oh" when he drops something.
Turns off the tv when we ask him to.
Runs away when we say, "I'm going to get cha!"
He says "beep beep" when we ask him what cars say.
He says "pee pee" when he sees Tyler's pee pee.
He tries to put dishwasher detergent in the dishwasher.
Plays the piano when we ask him to play the piano.
When we sing Ring Around the Rosie, he will try to hold hands with whoever is next to him and fall down when we get to the part "all fall down."
When we ask where his bellybutton is, he points at it.
He plays basketball with his little basketball game.
If you give him two sticks and tell him to play the drums, he will pretend play the drums.
If we give him a napkin and tell him to wipe his mouth, he will.
He laughs when we ask him to laugh.
And, last but not least, my favorite thing that Chase does: He pretends to cry when we ask him to cry (He is my son!). It is so cute!

Sorry this is boring. Just thought I would keep a record somewhere so Chase could read it when he is older.

He is starting to understand more words and is able to play with Tyler more! So exciting to watch him grow. Can't wait till they can play together and I can leave the room and get some stuff done! If I leave them now, one of them will cry over a stolen toy. And it's not always Chase crying!

I can't be friends with people I perceive as being sensitive or people who over think things. I am a very simple minded person. What you see is what you get. I can't even lie for the life of me. Why? Mostly, because it takes great skill and brains to lie! I've tried to lie before and have totally gotten caught because I can't keep up with my own lie!

Well, I digress. I was talking about friends. There are people who over think things. You know who they are. People who think, "Why did she just say that to me?" and "What did she REALLY mean by that?" If I think that someone falls in that category, I can't befriend them. Why? Well, mostly because I say things without thinking and sometimes I can say the wrong things. And if you know me, you know that I don't mean any harm and the last thing I want to do is hurt anyone's feelings.

I was just thinking of one particular friendship that I once had that totally ended because, well, I think I said the wrong thing to this person. Not intentional. Just came out wrong I think.

I was telling another friend about the loss of this friendship and telling her the circumstance behind it and she said, "Well, that girl was never your friend to begin with because if she were a friend, she would have known that you didn't mean any harm."

So this got me thinking to all my friendships and how I must have said "wrong" things to people in my past. So thank you to all my friends-you know who you are- who have forgiven me when I was being dumb and said the wrong thing that might have hurt your feelings. Thank you for your heart of forgiveness. I hope that I would be the same way to you.

There are times when I don't go shopping at all. I've gone months, almost half a year, without buying a single item of clothing. But then, there are a couple of weeks a year when I will go shopping as if I knew the world was ending tomorrow and I buy everything I like without any cares. This past week was one of those weeks. I went to the mall about four times and I bought way too much stuff.

One thing that I purchased was a new purse. It's not one of those thousand dollar purses, but it's a step up from the $10 Old Navy purse I have been carrying around the last few months. So I was happy and proud of this purse and I used it for the first time yesterday.

And guess what happened? I placed it on my lap while I was eating, like I was carrying my precious baby, and I got a huge oil stain on it. Not one drip. Not one spatter. DRIPS AND DRIP OF OIL. Isn't that just ironic? Nothing like that has ever happened to my Old Navy purse, but to get a huge oil stain the first time I use my new purse? Too ironic!

It was totally God reminding that all this stuff is just that- STUFF. The clothes will eventually stain, the cars will eventually get dented, things will get worn over time. ALL of the stuff that I was so giddy about acquiring will be in the dumpster one day. It might not happen in months, or years, but in the dumpster all my belongings will go one day.

Black oil stains to always remind me....

Don't be so happy and proud of these things, he says. There are better things to come.

Friday, October 03, 2008

Some pics from Chase's First Birthday Party! I kind of feel bad that I didn't post more from Tyler's party.

One strange fact about me. I will only use skincare products on a regular basis if it is in a pump bottle. If I have to unscrew the top and put my finger in the cream, I will never finish the jar. I have no explanation for this. Laziness? Afraid of germs? Just a strange fact.

Thursday, October 02, 2008

Some recent family pics. Sorry, don't know how to turn the pics right side up! I will try to post some pics from Chase's Dol soon!

One thing I hate is when strangers tell me what I am doing wrong with my children.

For example, I took the boys shopping this morning. Chase was being whiny so I gave him a straw to chew on. He loves doing this, it keeps him occupied, and we've never had any problems. A lady came up to me and said, "You should take that away from him. I'm afriad he might poke himself." DUDE!! I just told her that I always give it to him and he's never poked himself and we went on our merry way. But, in my mind, I'm thinking, MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS, LADY!!!

This has happened to me once before. Richard and I were eating at a restaurant with Chase. Chase was sitting in his high chair but I didn't buckle him in. The lady sitting next to us said, "You should buckle him in. I'm afraid he will fall out." I just smiled at her and totally disregarded her comment. I think I would see if my child started climbing out of his highchair.

I know these people mean well. I do. But something inside me feels like they should mind their own business!