Spaz Attack

Thoughts from a big spaz who has lots to spaz about.

Wednesday, June 27, 2007

Things have been pretty quite in the Kim house. I have another doctor's appointment today and I'm praying that I won't have to stay in the hospital again. I've been having more contractions so I don't know if the doctor will make me stay overnight for observation. I shouldn't complain about being on home bedrest. At least, I can see and play with Tyler every day!

Here are some things that Tyler has been saying lately. He is so talkative lately and seems to learn something new each day.

- "Umma, follow me. Come on!"

- When we ask Tyler where daddy is going, he replies, "To work." When we ask what daddy does, he says, "Doctor." When we ask where he works, he says, "Hospital." When we ask why daddy goes to work, he says, "To make money."

- Yesterday he came home and said, "Whitney pushed Tyler." When I asked if that was how he got a scratch on his knee, he said, "No, butt hurt."

- If I use Jason's pillow, Tyler will take it away and say, "Umma, that's ahpa's!"

- Once he asked grandma to buy him a Thomas train and she promise she would take him to Target once grandpa came back home. He was so happy and was hugging her. Just to see what he would do, I shook my head and said, "No Target, Tyler. You have enough trains." He looked at me and yelled, "That's mean!"

- Yesterday, I told Tyler I was the baby and that he was the mommy. I wasn't sure what he would do, but he gave me a "baby bottle," gave me a shower (while imitating things I say to him when I wash him), pretended to change my diaper, read me a book, hugged me, and told me "Don't cry, baby." It was too precious! Since I was acting like a baby (or him), I said to him, "That's mean!" and guess what his reply was: "No no Target!" He was acting like me! hahahaha.

Well, this post doesn't even do Tyler justice because it is so much more amazing to see him in real life. I think that this is the cutest time in a child's life...when he is learning to talk and put sentences together. It is the most hilarious thing!

Thursday, June 21, 2007

Yesterday was the last day of school for my students. Very surprisingly, I was overwhelmed with emotions. I guess it all just hit me all at once- that I wasn't there to say good bye and that this year did not end the way that it should have.

Plus, I was really upset with the sub when he told me that he has given away about $80 worth of my belongings that I had specifically told him not to touch. His reply: "There is so much to remember around here." I was so upset, I got off the phone rather abruptly. He later called to apologize, which he didn't have to do, so I felt a little better. I know that he didn't give my things away on purpose. I know that it must be hard to be a sub and remember so much information all at once. I know, and I should be more understanding.

At my last doctor's appointment, the doctor told me that Chase is already 91% in weight. When I told my doctor that Tyler was 9 lbs. at birth, she told me that I make really large babies. The more I research reasons that could have caused me to have a c-section when I had Tyler, I am more and more convinced that it was due to his huge size! I remember when I was in high school, someone once said to me, "You'll never have an easy childbirth. Look at your hips. A baby would never come out through there." Well, I guess that person was right. With the complications that I had with the last delivery, I'll be having a planned c-section when Chase is 37-38 weeks old. I'm a firm believer that the baby should stay in mommy's tummy for as long possible, but in my case, I'm so scared of what could be, that if the doctor told me it was safer for me to have my c-section at 34 weeks, I would listen.

Anyways, hope everyone is doing well! Happy Summer!

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

When you're on bed rest, there is one person you really dress up for. Well, I do anyway. (And, it's not Jason.) I dress up doctor! I'm so excited to be stepping out of the house, plus it's not like I have much of anything else to do, that it takes me about an hour to get ready! You'd think I was on my way to my wedding. Or at least my prom! I do my "full" make-up, curl my hair (curl my hair!), and take time to put on a cute outfit, of course, with matching accessories. Today, while I was getting ready, I was thinking how dumb I, who cares what I look like? I'm already like thirty pounds overweight and have a huge watermelon under my shirt. "Ain't nothing going to look cute, sister," I said to myself with defeat.

I'm so ecstatic that my sister is here but I'm SOOO miserable that I am not able to go OUT with her. Like, every time I hang out with her while she is here will be at my boring, tiny place, picking our noses. You know what that means, right? It means... no shopping! No eating out! No hanging around with our babies in tow! SOOO sad, I tell you! SOOO sad and disappointing since I've been counting down the days for her presence to be made in LA. Maybe I would feel better about it if the weather was really crappy and I didn't even want to go out..but dang, it's been like paradise up in LA, just adding salt to my deep wounds.

I don't know if I ever confessed here on my blog but I used to be a heavy complainer. If there was a complainer anonymous somewhere, I would (should) have been the first person to sign up. I was like that girl who complained for more heat on the day it was too cold, and then when I got more heat, complain it was too hot. I feel sorry for people who had to listen to my childish whining when I was in my complain mode (mostly exes). Well, thank heavens that most of my complaining has vanished since I met Jason (He was really the first guy to tell me to grow up and wouldn't put up with my crap, which I hated at first, but totally respected at the end.) and especially since I had Tyler (Who has time to complain about trivial things when you have a growing boy to take care of?). So anyways, the reason I bring this up now, is that I feel some of my complaining tendencies crawling back into my system lately. I don't know if it is hormones, being on bed rest and feeling like a prisoner in my own home. I try to bite my tongue cause God knows this is as hard for every one around me as it is for me. I'm just on edge lately. I could pick at the smallest things, mostly how things are being run around here since I can't handle the daily household stuff. At how Tyler's lunch is being made. At how the bathroom has tiny pieces of hair everywhere from when Jason tried to cut his own hair. At people buying the wrong kind of milk, or forgetting something from the grocery list.

I pray that God gives me the power to help me realize that this is just a phase I'm going through and that this shall pass.

I think He just did.

Monday, June 18, 2007

"Katie is here! I had so much fun with her! We couldn't go anywhere because my mom is sick but we had a blast at home."

"We played parachute, magic carpet, and ate fruit together. I even crawled around after her. I wasn't very good about sharing my toys, but I'll work on that."

"My auntie always makes me laugh."

"Making a house for my bunnies! Thanks Auntie Jenn!"

Happy Birthday to Jenn!

Friday, June 15, 2007

Hello everyone. I finally came back home after a night stay at the hospital. I am really on strict, strict bedrest so I don't know how often I'll be able to blog here since now my doctor told me not to sit too long! Sorry if I don't get to return emails and this site is a little barren for a couple of weeks.

I don't know what happened to the comments thing on this site. I didn't change anything. It just went away. Boohoo.

Miss you all. Wish I could go out and play.

Happy Birthday Jen!

Wednesday, June 13, 2007

I have a doctor's appointment today and I'm actually happy about it. I've been having some strong contractions lately and I just need to hear some reassurance that everything is ok.

Sorry about the lack of pictures on this site. The sad fact is that my family doesn't take a lot of pictures at all. I hate being in pictures and Jason hates taking pictures...what a perfect match! All the pictures of my pregnant ass have already been posted here...I believe all 3! I know one day, when I am all wrinkly and old, I will demand to know from Jason, "Now why did you take more pictures of me when I was younger? Now I don't have proof to show the grandkiddies that grandma wasn't always an old wrinkled fart!" while bopping him over the head with a pillow and his dentures falling to the floor.

Here is a school picture of Tyler. We just got it back yesterday and I actually cried. Jason said that Tyler looks sad in the picture. I don't know, maybe that is why I get really emotional when I look at it. I wasn't there with him so I can imagine the photographer telling him to sit on that green wicker seat and Tyler wondering what the heck is going on. Maybe because it's his very first "school" picture. I know there will be so many more in the future, but this is his first and I think that he is already growing too fast in front of my eyes. Maybe it's because it hurts to know that I'm not and cannot always with him. But, most likely of all the reasons, I cry because I love him so much.

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

Tyler just said his most grown up statement to date. Jason took him to the California Science Center this past weekend. When they got back, I asked Tyler if he liked it.

He crinkled his nose, shook his head and said, "Not really. I don't like it."

It was the cutest thing ever and I couldn't stop laughing. When did my baby turn into a "big boy?"

Monday, June 11, 2007

My sister Claudia, brother in law David, and niece Katie are coming to LA tomorrow! I am so excited!!! yay!!!

Friday, June 08, 2007

My mom came over today, and after looking at Kate's pictures on the internet, she wanted to know when Tyler's bottom teeth came out. Since I didn't write down any of this information, I thought the best way to answer her question was to go back to some old pictures of Tyler to see when he had teeth in the pictures.

So, we came across these pictures and my mom gasped. She asked me what I was doing to her poor grandson and I answered that I was trying to get pictures of Tyler's teeth coming out. She shook her head and just laughed and laughed, and asked if there wasn't a better way to take pictures of Tyler's growing teeth.

I didn't find these pictures funny before, but since my mom was laughing at them, I started laughing too. Kind of sad, huh, that I would attack him like that! Poor thing!

"I was sitting happily at home in my very dirty NYPD shirt."

"My mom wanted to take a picture of my teeth and she thought this would be the best way!"

"Ahh, mom, let me go!!!"

Auntie Jenn, have fun in New York!

Tuesday, June 05, 2007

Thanks to grandma and grandpa for my new Thomas blanket!

I woke up and was enjoying my Thomas book. I didn't even wake my mom and dad up! They finally woke up and took this picture of me. (Thank you to Auntie Helen for the pjs!)

So, that's how you eat ja jang myun! Thanks for teaching me Uncle Rich!

I love this Check it out! Thanks to crassyboy for introducing me to this site. I always listen to my Jim Brickman music on this site cause I just LOVE piano music. I'm going to make Tyler play the piano so he could play it for me in my old age. haha.

Monday, June 04, 2007

Hello! Happy Monday! :) Not much going on here at home. I gave myself a facial and manicure today. Wahoo..exciting life I tell you. I tried to do a pedicure, but it wasn't pretty and I gave up. Visualize an orangutan giving itself a pedicure. Funny, but kind of sad at the same time, no?

Well, I'll tell you a little bit about this new facial. You have to try it because, I don't know what it does, but it does something! All you need is some non coated aspirin and honey. I take about 3 aspirins and sprinkle a little bit of water on them. Then, I add 1 tablespoon of honey and mash up the aspirin with in. Then I put it on my face for about 10 minutes and, voila, when I wash the aspirin/honey mask off my face, it is glowing and refreshed. Even Jason could see the difference! (and trust me, he is not one to notice these things.) I did it three times (once a week) in the the last three weeks and I really see a difference! I told Jason what it was and he was like, "Oh yeah, aspirin has natural acids in it." I swear my husband thinks he knows everything!

Well, it could also be:
- hormones (you know that pregnancy glow everyone speaks of?)
- the fact that I sleep A LOT!
- the fact that I am home and have no stress whatsoever.
- the fact that I'm eating healthier and drinking more water.

But, I think it is the mask. So anyways, it's so's worth a try!

There's my beauty post for the year! :)