Spaz Attack

Thoughts from a big spaz who has lots to spaz about.

Thursday, May 27, 2004

Had our wedding rehearsal right now. I think I already forgot all that our wedding director told us to do on Saturday. oh no. All the planning is winding down and I just hope everything goes well. I am so exhausted and my mind/body has been working over time this week. I can't imagine that all this will be done soon and Jason and I will be in Oregon. I won't believe it when we are sitting at home bored off our ass. I will cherish the moment. I can't wait.

Tuesday, May 25, 2004

Our wedding is in five days! I decided that it would be best for my state of mind if I did not go into work this week. Which is a good thing because I still have so much to do and take care of.

I don't know what is wrong with me, but I do everything the hard way. It would have been so much easier to have a buffet. It would have been easier if I didn't have menu cards- with ribbon. (As Jason stated, "What are those for?! They don't even have a choice. It's not a restaurant!")

One thing that boggles me is how much the guest list has grown. We really wanted to keep the guest count low. That was our goal from the very beginning, and somehow it's just grown tremendously. Our list grew by about 50 guests. I know- that is some major miscalculations on our part.

People keep saying, "This is the best time of your life. Cherish it." All I want to tell them is, "If this is the best time of my life, how come I would never do it again- even if someone paid me."

Monday, May 24, 2004

Ah, there a better show that WB Superstar? It's so cruel, but so funny.

Sunday, May 16, 2004

It's been hard for me to write in here. #1,I've been busy with wedding stuff and #2, these fake claws don't make it easy to type.

Yesterday, my good friends Jenny and Charlie got married. It was a beautiful wedding and everyone had a great time. You know that everyone partied when half the girls take off their shoes by the end of the night! Jenny and Charlie- I know that you two will have a lifetime of happiness together. I am so happy for you both. And Charlie, stop thanking me!:) It was truly my pleasure to help out. Congratulations!

Teddy- Thanks for helping me out last night. What an adventure, huh? I don't know what I would have done if you weren't there.

Tuesday, May 11, 2004

Today was the only day that our photographer could take our engagement pictures so I couldn't go to school. For some reason, I don't feel that bad about calling in for a sub. A colleague told me yesterday, "You gotta do what you gotta do" and, shit, I still gots lots to do! Can you believe that Jason and I still haven't picked out what we are going to wear for the pictures. I should have taken care of this last week. Damn- too too much to think about. I am really dreading this six hour picture session that Jason and I will have to endure today. I loathe being in pictures. It feels so unnatural to smile and smile at nothing. It is as unnatural as the acrylic nails that took me over two hours to get yesterday.

SN to Susan: The ribbon is more than a yard- Perfect! Thanks for helping me decorate the cake!

Monday, May 10, 2004

I was thinking the other night. We have maternity leave, but how come there is no "bridal leave." Brides are just as tired and surely have more stuff to do than watch a sleeping baby.

Thursday, May 06, 2004

I just watched the end of Friends and was really sad to see this one end. I never watched religiously but it was a fun show to watch. I got all emotional watching it. It made me think of how things change, how I will be getting married and moving to Oregon, away from everything I love and everything I know here. I don't think it really hit me until now.

It's hard for me to write here, but my grandfather passed away. Yesterday was the viewing and all the family members got together to say our last good byes. My dad put up a strong face in front of us, but I know he is torn inside. Jason and I went to two funerals this week, one for his uncle and one for my grandfather. Nothing like going to a funeral to remind one that life is too short and to try to live life without regrets.

Tuesday, May 04, 2004

Went to one of my favorite places tonight- Costco! I went to buy fruit and was rather disappointed when I saw its puny selection. So Jason and I ended up standing in line for about thirty minutes to buy cereal, soymilk, and a bag of cookies. Fun. After fifteen minutes, we seriously talked about just leaving our basket there and getting out of line, but somehow we must have talked ourselves out of that idea.

I love going to Costco and looking in everyone's baskets. I'm always curious about what other people buying and why. I also try to imagine what they will be eating in the upcoming weeks, what event the food might be for, and even if they will be reimbursed later for all their purchases if they are buying for their companies. I know I'm odd. It's just that people buy so much when they shop at Costco and there must be a reason! I want to ask the man with the ten bags of pancake mix what he's going to use it for. Does he own an IHOP? Is it his job to serve breakfast at work? Does he just like pancakes? What?! I want to ask the women why she is buying twenty bags of beef jerky. Is she going to resell it? Does she send it back to her home country? What do they do with it? Eat it? I want to know!

And all the while, they are looking into my basket and thinking, "What an idiot. Why would you come here to buy three things and wait in this long ass line?"

Sunday, May 02, 2004

It's May! It's May! I'm getting married this month! :) This weekend was pretty chill. Not much to report. Dude, did I tell you that I'm getting married this month!

Saturday, May 01, 2004

Please let me vent. Since I got engaged and people have been asking me about details of my wedding, there is something that really annoys the hell out of me. They ask me something about my wedding and after I answer their question, they say something along the lines of, "Is that a Korean thing?" No, you freakin' moron, it's a Cristina and Jason thing. It has nothing to do with race. So, Jason and I are having a small, church wedding. And, I've never wanted my wedding to be some rowdy ass event with people getting drunk all over themselves. That's just us - me and Jason. Is that a Korean thing? Hell no. Claudia's wedding was outdoors, double in size, with a huge band, and had an open bar the whole night. Is that a Korean thing? I mean, come on. I want to tell these people how offensive they are with their narrowmindness and how ignorant they come across making everything a race issue.

Just because some people of a culture might be one way, does that make everyone like that? Hell no.
Just because you are a certain way, does that make everyone of your race just like you? Hell no.
I dare you to look at people as individuals.