Spaz Attack

Thoughts from a big spaz who has lots to spaz about.

Monday, February 04, 2013

random thoughts:

1. two more days and the backyard should be done (side note: just looked out the upstairs window to see how things were going to see the main landscaper picking for gold up his nose and dropping his findings on my new grass....gross!) anyways, i will be happy when it is all done and i don't feel so self conscious in my house. don't ask me why i feel self conscious in my house while they are outside. i have no idea. i don't even think they can see inside the house at all. i don't know! i just do! regardless, i will be happy that i don't have people around the house making all this noise, that the boys have a backyard (finally!) and i can scratch one more big thing off my to do list!

2. i have a crazy obsession. i think i need to be on that show "my crazy obsession." is that what that show was called? it had people on it who ate toilet paper, drank urine, picked up dead animals off the sides of roads, etc. anyways, my crazy obsession is that i like to cut kali's hair! like, all the time! it is bordering on obsession. i look at her and look for hair that is uneven, and of course, all her hair looks uneven...she is a dog! and i just take her to my bathroom and pick her up in the air with my left hand and go to work with my scissors. she is so good. she doesn't fight back or anything, and in my mind, i think "you're going to be the prettiest little bitch on this street." she just goes completely limp in my hands and lets me work my magic. well, i wouldn't really call it magic since she looks like a rat now....but i can't stop myself. it is sooooo therapeutic and soothing! just going snip, snip, snip for hours. maybe i should have been a hair stylist....didn't know it was my calling until i got kali! anyone's dog in need of some grooming? it has to be less than 5 pounds though. i dont think i could hold anything heavier  than that up in the air. :)

3. i had a life changing epiphany last week. REALLY. dont' laugh. i swear it. LIFE CHANGING, i tell you.

ok, so here goes. i'll try to explain myself but how do you explain something that is so LIFE CHANGING when you are such a bad writer and can't find the words to explain yourself with your limited english? hmmm...i shall try.

ok, so last week, i TOTALLY broke out. like, on my face. like i'm still in high school type break out. like i'm embarrassed to go out break out.

and i couldn't believe it at first because this was the week i was suppose to have clear skin.

you see, i have one week in the month where i always tolerate bad skin (just dull skin, larger pores, possibly some break outs) because i've just always thought that this was part of me being a girl, me having monthly hormones that go up and down like a crazy roller coaster. i just dealt with bad skin for about a week out of the month.

and then, you see, this amazing thing happens or is suppose to happen. after i get a visit for "aunt flow," it all clears up, and my skin gets a little better magically.

and all these years, i just thought this was how it was suppose to be. bad skin for about two weeks before the "flow" and then two weeks of decent skin afterwards. and i thought this was all about hormones.

but, last week, when i totally broke out, it was suppose to be my "good skin week" so i was completely baffled. BAFFLED!

and it got me thinking about what i had eaten the previous days. here goes:

- breakfast: cereal with milk, caffeinated coffee
- snack: chocolates
- lunch: lean cuisine with a 7-up
- snack: cold sugar filled starbucks drink
- dinner: cupcake

and then my life changing epiphany: THE SHIT I EAT GIVES ME MY CRAPPY ASS SKIN!!!!!

look at all my vices: caffeine, milk, high processed foods, sugary drinks, a cupcake?!!!!

it's crazy that i've never thought about this before. never. not that the food i eat is responsible for my occasional break outs! but now, i'm totally convinced that my days of eating shit gave me shitty skin. (especially because it didn't happen when i could blame my hormones)

i've always thought that this was a myth. isn't that what they tell you? that it is a MYTH that eating certain foods give you acne? i never connected the two...NEVER!

i knew that sleeping and water affects my body...but food? i never thought about it.

if i ever thought about food, it was more about calories so i wouldn't gain weight. hence, i was in the mood for a cupcake (about 350 calories i think) and i decided to have that and forgo my real dinner.

and if i ever thought about my skin, i always thought it was the outside of my skin that i had to take care of (like lotions and potions and stuff ON my face)

but i NEVER thought about the quality of food or vitamins or anything like that and how that affects my body (and manifest on my skin!) i mean, of course, i occasionally thought about it but never REALLY thought about it. (i told you this was going to be hard to explain with my limited english! haha)

anyways, this is the new me:
1. will take daily vitamins
2. will only drink water
3. will eat CLEAN- mostly fruits, veggies, and lean proteins
4. will not drink milk or eat dairy products...for some reason, i think this is the main culprit
5. no more crazy refined carbs, whole grain only. no more white rice if i can help it.
6. no more highly processed foods (even if i think it is low in calories! lean cuisines...omg! that is just gross!)

this will be a life change. of course, there will be times when i have some "naughty" foods, but mostly i'm going to try  my very best to keep my sugar levels pretty stable and not let it spike life crazy by eating crabs and sugary treats all the time.

i am college educated and i can't believe it took me this long to come to this realization. better late than never i guess.

if eating nasty foods could cause me to have bad skin, i can only imagine what it does to the inside of my body.

clean eating all the way. can i get an amen?! this is the new me! :)

ok, gotta go. i'm getting hungry and i need to juice up my lunch! :)


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