Random thoughts:

1. First week back at school. I thought I would be resting at home drinking martinis and catching up with the Kardashians while the boys were at school, but alas, that didn't happen. Mostly, I had a bunch of guys coming in and out of the house throughout the days to see that various things in our house were working properly (AC, garage light, sprinklers, redo chaulking, solar powering system, etc) Not my idea of fun, especially because they always seem to be younger than me and they come in saying, "Hello M'am" and making me feel like a granny. I feel like the next few weeks won't be any different from this week as we do other things around the house...oh fun! How would these things ever get done if Jason and I both worked? I have no idea how other households do it!

2. Also, I've been stressing out a lot about the boys' time in school, like I mentioned in a previous post. I am not 100% "sold" on their teachers yet and that is a scary feeling to have. In my book, teachers fall into these categories: 1. warm, sweet, funny but not academically strong. 2. stronger in the academics but cold to the students 3. don't give a shit about being warm or fuzzy or teaching 4. a mixture of loving on the kids but don't want to waste time and see every opportunity to teach and give children experiences. Obviously, if you get a teacher that falls into #3, you are better off letting your child stay home and watch Sesame Street all day. If you get a teacher that falls into #4, thank your lucky stars....these teachers are far and few between. We currently have Tyler and Chase enrolled in the private school that Tyler went to last year, and I will repeat again and again until my face is blue that it doesn't matter if a child goes to a public or a private school, the MAIN thing is THE TEACHER. Does she REALLY care that this is going to be a year of GROWTH and does she REALLY want to make a difference in the children's lives? That is what I am looking for, and so sad that I am not quite sure about Tyler's teacher yet. You're probably wondering why I didn't have this all figured out before enrolling Tyler into the same school again and isn't that what private schools are for....COMPLETE ACCESS to teachers and staff at ALL times? Well, yes, but the teacher I thought would be Tyler's 3rd grade teacher unexpectedly moved over the summer and I found out about this new teacher a couple of days before school started, and what was I suppose to do then? Urgh! Tis is life and must go with what life throws at you, but that doesn't mean I'm not annoyed! I'm not saying she is horrible, I'm just saying that I don't know enough about her and I haven't grilled her enough to feel 100% secure that we made the right decision. What makes it extra complicated in my book is that I knew her before she became Tyler's teacher (long story) and now I feel like it's too late for me to be the no nonsense, not-getting-too-friendly-with-the-teacher parent because it's a little too late for that. Crap. What to do. What to do. I told you I'm a spaz. Hence, the title of this blog.

3. But my spazticness has soooo diminish these last few years. NOTHING bugs me, really. The transformation from drama queen to Ms. Nothing Phases Me is quite startling, actually, even to myself!!! I think I'm pretty much the most flexible girl that I know (and I'm not talking about the flexible, like I can't do amazing Olympic gymnastics here). Nothing bothers me that isn't life or death or pertaining to how someone treats my boys. So basically, nothing gets my panties all in a bunch (Is that a weird idiom? I think so, but it's funny!). I think I've learned most of this from how Jason lives his life. He is the most content, stable person that I've ever met. Nothing wiles him up. He is calm, collected, thinks about his actions before he makes them and shuts up when he doesn't think his words will help a situation. Amazing, no? Well, thank goodness it wasn't too late for me to adopt some of his ways.  I'm actually very thankful that I've learned that life is not all about me and that my life does not revolved around what makes me happy...because wouldn't that be a miserable way to live a life? I also think having kids changes people because for the first time, you learn that it's not all about YOU...actually you learn that other people-your kids -will always come before yourself and that should change you. Damn, I feel so wise and old as I write this! haha... Anyways, you will never see me upset over a dented car or a changed schedule or Jason forgetting to pick something up from the store. (All things that would have tipped me over the edge back in the day.) Nope. People lose their loved ones, people lose their kids, people are sick and live in poverty all over this world. That OTHER stuff....that is nothing at all to get upset over.

I feel like I'm preaching here. Sorry if I come across that way. I just write about my life and this is how I feel at this time in my life!

Plus, I don't think anyone is reading this blog anymore!!