Some random thoughts:

1. Sometimes when I am on Facebook, I think about the people at Myspace. You know there is some exec over there thinking, "Damn, where did we go SOOO wrong?"

2. I had plans to go somewhere with the boys today but Chase is a bit under the weather. You realize that you have to be so flexible when you are a mother. Your plans mean nothing when you have a sick child.

3. We were in San Diego for Sarah's wedding on Saturday. Gorgeous wedding. Gorgeous bride. Gorgeous weather. Georgeous Maid of Honor! Congrats to Sarah and Brendan!

We decided to stay the night because we got a pretty decent hotel for only $65/night on priceline...what a deal, right? We went to the Wild Animal Park on Sunday, and can I say that they should call that plance Wild Animal Park/BOOTCAMP! That place is crazy! You have to walk up and down hills to see one dang animal and I thought I was going to pass out! I told Jason at one point that they didn't plan this park very friendly for people to walk around. And he said in a lofty tone of voice, "I don't think they plan these places for people. I think they plan it according to what is best for the animals." Dang him. When did HE become an animal lover? oh please.

4. Being a mommy is hard. Some days I feel like I'm doing great as a mommy. Feeding them right. Stimulating their little brains. They are such happy boys! And then, other days, I feel like a crap mother. Why can't I do more with them? Did I really need to watch The Worst Cook In America (oh, the irony) when I could have played with them for an hour? How come I don't take them enough places? How come they eat processed foods? Couldn't I just do MORE??? Oh, the guilt! I've come to realize that this feeling is just a part of being a mom. Don't know if it will ever go away. I've come to terms with it. All I can say is that I tried, Boys! :)

5. Can you believe that I lie with my kids until they fall asleep every night? Well, I stopped doing this with Tyler when he turned 2, but I still lie down with Chase. Sometimes it takes 5 minutes for him to fall asleep. Other times it take thirty minutes or even longer! Sometimes, I think I could be doing other things. But mostly, I LOVE putting them to sleep by lying next to them. I love hugging them and feeling like their stuffed animal. I love hearing them breathe. I love smelling them. I love what they say to me before falling off to dreamland. The other day, Chase said half asleep, "I love you so much. You nice. You my best friend. Merry Christmas." When they get older, the last thing they will want is a hug from their old mama so I'm happy to get all the hugs I can now. :)

Happy New Year y'all! 2010 will go down in history as one of the best, Nostra-Cristina predicts for you.